I’m just fine…

Im fine, im fine with the fact that my special someone got hit by a bus, im fine with the fact that I cant find someone who cant just stay with me, im fine with the fact that my,insecruities affect me, im fine that no one knows how to deal with my problems but god, im fine period. Its just some people just dont,understand, how hard it is to be fine, when you intake so much pain from people who hurt you from the past , to present. Its frustrating and mind blowing but I manage to survive, through god. The only one who truly loves me and wont hurt me.